1. “As I get closer to it (the debt) the wind picks up. There are dead dry leaves in the air.
The wind is a natural force, representative of the real superpower, nature, which not even economic forces can control.
2. It seems so far away, it looks like a huge pointy skyscraper, pointy, sharp at the top.
The distance and the pointy form were hard for you to approach, the walk was strenuous because your fear slowed you down. The Pointy form in the sky is reminiscent of a sword growing out of the earth instead of plunging in like King Arthur would have had it. Is it a weapon that protects the earth from us by slowing us down with guilt and fear?
3. It’s gray, no clouds. Farm fields surround it, the ground is dewy, bare, with short dead grass.
The environment seemed like some type of aftermath caused by the debt form. It was withered, tired. It was not alive, but was it dead? Had it ever been alive?
4. I’m completely alone.
Isolation from other people, you were the only person who could see this debt. Debt is individualized, it cuts one off from others due to feelings of shame and responsibility.
5. As I get closer the atmosphere turns to fog. There seems to be a power coming from the building, but it’s behind it or from within it, it is hidden.
Fog, mysterious power distorts your perception, creates fear and privacy, clouds transparency, keeps you from truth.
6. I’m at the front door, I can’t see the top of the building.
Perspective lost because of the grand scale, you couldn’t really see what you were looking at.
7. The farmland goes right up to the building, the building goes deep down into the ground and up higher than I can see.
Deep relationship with the earth, the growth of the debt out of the earth, or at least its rootedness deep in the soil represents an awareness of a force that develops like nature but with different energy and consequences.
8. At the door. It won’t open, there’s no handle, no hinges. It’s cold, I can push on it, it’s set inside of the building, just a little bit. I don’t want to be around this building.
Repelling qualities remained even though you continued to approach it, you are afraid of it but you won’t let it stop you
9. The building is made of a hybrid plexi-glass, mirror and metal. It’s very cold, metallic blue.
Metallic materials are a representation of power and wealth, sterile, conductive, reflective, slick, sharp. Far from human.
10. The building is pristine, like no one has ever touched it. If I touch it, it hurts my fingers, it is so hard.
Pristine, impenetrable un-organic, inhuman, artificial, toxic.
11. It’s been here for a long time. When I look at where the building meets the soil, it looks like the soil was placed around the building, because the building has been here longer than the farmland.
Longterm existence indicated by its existence preceding the land, this is an ancient social construction
12. It feels like it landed here. It is not a human’s project. It is not permanent, it could leave.
Alien origin is not ‘natural’ the way we think of nature, but is not man-made either.
13. The only thing that could move it is itself. A million people couldn’t change it.
Un-changeability, powerlessness is indicated by its long staying time and your awareness of your relative scale and strength. You knew by looking at it you could not defeat it. This is a sign of surrender, which is your choice.
14. I have no idea what is inside of it. I can’t see anything inside because it’s so silent.
Mysterious silent contents didn’t let you understand the interior of the structure, but you were still privy to its power—it communicates its power in different ways
15. I can’t climb on it without sliding down. I get delusional and believe I can climb it, but then I can’t.
Passive relationship to it did not allow you to mount it, or have any lasting effect on it.
16. I feel defeated by it. Nothing can grow because of it. It’s causing the farmland to die.
Defeating of self, you didn’t allow yourself to defeat it, but you were able to leave it and return to your life.
17. It’s sucking life out of land. I want it to go away but I don’t know what’s inside it that’s killing the environment.
Killing everything the toxicity of the form, its mysterious murderous powers decimated the landscape, leaving you as the last living thing. You have to be resilient to avoid the same fate.